Then in a flash, I was faced with a tremendous change in my life. Devastating circumstances infected my marriage. My downward spiral began when infidelity crushed our relationship. Despite months and months of trying to fix our marriage, we were quickly headed for divorce. At that time, I had been married for less than four years. My two children were ages one and three. Since I was a stay-at-home mom, I was out of the workforce. As a result, I had a huge financial mess in front of me.
I don’t know about any of you, but when major life changes happen that are beyond our control, awful feelings take over. Feelings such as stress, anxiety, worry, fear, anger, and self-doubt all creep in and consume who we are. Things were tremendously overwhelming for me. Finally, I was left thinking I CAN’T DO THIS. In the span of eighteen months, I was separated and dealing with the legalities of divorce, lost my home in foreclosure, and filed for bankruptcy. Quickly, I needed to get back into the workforce.
Most days I spent just trying to get by. Because I was a single mom of two very young kids who needed me, not to mention, going at it all alone, I was feeling very overwhelmed. It was important for me to continue to nurture my children so they did not feel the effects of my internal struggle. However, inside, I was dealing with so much negative emotions and mindset. Overall, things were bad and I needed help.